Saturday, June 21, 2014

Social media ~~ good or bad?

Social media ~~ good or bad?

So I have had a Facebook account for several years.  Last year, I had a "temper tantrum" and deleted everyone from my 'friends' and then posted on my secure homepage that if anyone wanted to be added back, just send a friend request.  Well, duh, they couldn't see it!  That left me to assume who would want to be there or not.  I naturally added my children and their spouses.  I added my mother back as well as my father-in-law. 

There was a reason for the 'temper tantrum'... I had just lost the direct sales business that I had had so much hope in.  There were so many consultants that were going to new companies and were all going to be asking their former consultant friends to help them get started by asking each one to have a party or at least buy something.  I just couldn't as I was already $12,000 in debt between the 2 so-called Christian direct sales companies.  Neither had proven to be what they said they were.  Very discouraging at the very least.  A friend was going to try to help me sell off all that I had in inventory between the two companies.  Well, all of the stuff is still sitting in her garage (I think) and she is now selling her own candles so why would she want to sell what I had left from my now defunct company?  I have told her she can bring the huge stash back but she is busy with her life and lives about 30-45 minutes away.  Perhaps I could convince my husband to bring it all back here.  (I'm sure that would go over like a lead balloon to have HIM go get all of that 'crap' back!)

And now there is the Google+ and I am trying to figure it out and got into a conversation about the proposed name change for the Washington Redskins.  OMGosh!  I got attacked by this one guy who had such a limited vocabulary that only included some of the most foul words in the English language.  I just had a thought... maybe the team should be called the Washington Red Delicious!  LOL

Social media has its place.  Its a wonderful way to stay in touch with friends and family that are distances away.  It's also a way to stay in contact with busy family and friends that live nearby but don't have the means to visit in person.

So I'm tagging this a blundering because of the hours long 'debate' with a man that needs to realize that you can't talk like that and still remain self-employed as people will look you up online and see how you treat people!  And this man's self-employed as a tree trimmer in Florida where they are a dime a dozen there!  The nice thing is, as hard as he tried, he did not get me to stoop to his level and reply in kind!  One for me!!!

Thursday, June 19, 2014

I Must Apologize

I must apologize. My most recent posts have been primarily political and under the heading of blithering. I do need to keep things somewhat balanced so I would like to offer a blessing.

I now have 10 beautiful grandchildren that are all so sweet and kind hearted and sincere, not the robotic type of polite because I have to and can I go now? I have, since I was posting last, 3 new granddaughters! Yes, 3! All counted, there are 5 granddaughters and 5 grandsons (1 living with Jesus) and while they are all blessings in their own way,

I have to say that these girls are the kind that you just want to have around you and you want to spoil them and get on the floor with them to do your makeup and hair and nails and just have a girls day. Right now I have to refrain from this favorite time with the girls because of a procedure that is coming up and I can't have nail polish on either hand or toes. But when these procedures are done, I am praying for a girls day so we can do all the girlie things they like to do! The 8 yrs old braided my hair for me the other day and the 6 year old put my hair in a pony tail. What they haven't learned yet is that Nana bought curlers and we can have lots of fun with those too! While the youngest is 3 months old right now, it won't be long before she is trying to 'paint' Nana ~ apparently any exposed skin is fair game! LOL

So, I hope that you are able to picture this type of activity going on. And maybe it can be coordinated with a boys day with Papa and it will be a double blessing!!

I so miss my grands being around and being able to just jump in my truck and drive over and spend the day with them. I love that my daughter home schools and I wish I was one of her students! She is so smart and has the ability to communicate to each child what they need to know to accomplish their task in a way that each child understands. I truly admire her God-given abilities and skills and her paving a new way for her to be a wife/helpmeet and mother and teacher as well as her love language of feeding people which means cooking! 

She is just as precious to me as the daughters that she's had. All the girls but the 8 year old are hers. I also love that the two children that I raised up live close by and the children will grown up with their cousins as their best friends! THAT is a true blessing in both my family and my hubby's family! I hope you are as blessed reading this as I am in writing it! Gotta get that girls day on the calendar soon! God bless all of them and all of you that read this!

Tuesday, June 17, 2014

Ok, so I'm gonna get up on a soapbox... get ready... a political soapbox. I don't care if you voted for Obama the first time, the second time, or both times. Obama has disintegrated this country's perspective of other nations, he considers himself outside of any laws or obligations to Congress as he has gotten most of 'his way' through abusing the use of the Executive Order! Right now, Iraq is falling to people worse than Al Qaida and the Taliban and HE SET FREE 5 of the top military leaders of Al Qaida! They are right back at what they were doing when we captured them. And he traded them for a deserter! And he says of this 'captive' that he "served with honor and dignity" and we needed to do this to free the only captive. And here we have a true soldier that has served with honor and dignity sitting in a Mexican prison simply for getting in the wrong lane and ending up at the Mexican border. He was completely open and honest with them and they threw him in a nasty jail and now he sits in a prison - 2 months now and NOTHING from Obama. Yet, our border patrol is being inundated by illegal immigrants due to Obama's speech in 2012 and using his Executive Order powers with this "Dream Act" so the people and children have somehow made it across the Mexican border (on the South) and then crosses over the river and meets up with the border patrol. There are so many that they cannot take care of them, process them, or most importantly, keep the Cartel from bringing in illegal drugs! Just keep the border patrol busy changing diapers! Where is Obama now? Why hasn't he enacted FEMA to bring needed supplies and most importantly, let FEMA take care of processing these illegal immigrants so the border patrol can gat back to doing what they are there to do... protect our border from illegal immigrants and drug runners. They are costing us millions and millions of dollars. I say put them on a bus, with a Mexican driver, and have them make the same wrong lane mistake our soldier did and send these people back!!! We already have 9 million illegal immigrants in this county! They are getting all of the social services like food stamps, AFDC, housing, and medical. How? They are using fake names and in some cases they are using a relative's information with or without that family member's knowledge. Instead of paying out all of this money to sustain their cushy life here, ILLEGALLY, I would rather my tax dollars go to sending them back to their home country. I don't care if they have been here for a long period of time and I really don't care about the 'anchor babies' they have here. They have a choice when they are sent back... either take the child with you or leave it with legal family members or leave the child in the hands of social services. But that choice is the parent's choice. That may seem cold-hearted but We, the People, are overburdened and over-taxed because of people that don't even legally belong here in this country! Well, while all this is going on, our so-called President was golfing and making a another speech. He learns of what's going on by watching the news! I'm so sick and tired of this president being anywhere but where he belongs... in the White House! He is not president material, he's a PR man and that's how he's been for both terms being elected by the electoral college because of powerful people behind the scenes. If you'll remember, when he was being sworn in as a Senator (the first time in actual politics), the media kept saying "You are looking at our next president!" That stuck in my head. And four short months into his first term as a Senator, he was running against Hillary Clinton for the Democratic ticket! This man cannot make a speech without teoeprompters. I have seen him in positions where he does't have the answers being fed to him and he's a hot mess. I can tell you, I never voted for this man that is trying to tear apart what our forefathers left us. He is trying to make us a socialized country where we are all dependent on the government. That is NOT what the legacy of our forefathers left us. I end this blithering with... God help us all.

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Honor Memorial Day!

I was watching Fox News the other day and I heard Col. Alan West say that he would prefer we say "Honor Memorial Day" rather than Happy Memorial Day. Most people think of it as the beginning of summer and forget what it truly means.

Friday, May 23, 2014

Updated blitherings....

Apparently this is a continuation of one I posted earlier! LOL Family means different things to different people. It amazes me, at times, how people form families. Whether they are blood-related, or they are close enough to be family to each other in the absence of one's blood-relatives, or they somehow connect through groups such as church, military, work, college, or other organizations such at AA, or NA. People form families because we cannot live without some sort of family. In my case, my family is complicated and complex and I'm not very close with any particular person outside of my own created family... and that even is strained. There seems to have appeared an impasse that has arisen and I'm not quite sure how to overcome it. Without exposing too much information to protect the innocent, because of my disabilities, I am not trustworthy to leave your children with. While I agree that there is much merit in this statement, depending on the age of the child and how prepared that child has been made on how to use a telephone (most kids don't know that they once hung on a wall and not in your pocket/purse). The other thing that is hard to swallow is that its ok for these same children to come if my husband is home, yet the same parent has made numerous comments about how he wanted everyone to come and then he disappears upstairs in his office the whole time. But he would be within earshot if you needed something... uh, no, he would be outside playing with his lawnmower, et al. Or be upstairs, on his computer and not at hand for any type of help. So, now that the dynamics of my family life have changed because of my disabilities, how do I proceed? I have a husband that says things like "you can do whatever you put your mind to" and says "you're depressed" when neither are true... unless that's his ultimate goal of me becoming depressed. I am scheduled for a pain pump trial and I have a plethora of paperwork to fill out BEFORE the appointment and then it states that there will be 45-50 minutes of paperwork to fill out at the appointment! As I read through the questions, I got angrier, and angrier, which he claims is a mood swing, at the invasiveness of the questions and the repetition of the questions. Keep in mind, I have been seeing doctors pertaining to my multiple problems for a number of years so my pain should be well documented. For some psychologist to as the same redundant questions is something I'm not willing to do. And even if I were willing, I don't know the date this pain first started, and the date that pain began, et al. And then the most intrusive questioning about our sex life. My answer to that is a resounding NONE OF YOUR FREAKING BUSINESS! So, my husband groups me into a group of depressed people because I don't want to 'play nice in the sandbox of psychotherapy". I told him that he is welcome to fill out his own questionnaires and see how he feels but he's good at just fudging the info... if they ask a date, he'll make one up. Then, because I want to learn to shoot and to be armed at home and eventually getting a concealed carry permit. Disabled people are easy marks and we don't have to be! And when I joined a legitimate organizations, he hit the roof! He was afraid I would accidentally shoot him and the most insulting is that he is afraid I would shoot myself! I have no intentions of doing either! But since in his mind, I'm depressed, then I could lose it one day and just shoot myself. I reminded him that I'm on so many medications that if I really was interested in doing terminal harm to myself, its at my fingertips. So who is being illogical here? I'm on 33 medications of which 3 are OTC prescribed meds. Traditionally, women who want to kill themselves usually use meds to do it, not shooting themselves or hanging themselves. Are there variations, sure... but overall, its men that shoot themselves or hang themselves. (Interestingly, he's never mentioned the hanging option that I have at my fingertips every day... just shooting myself.) So here I am, rambling on and on about nothing others really care about. But its cathartic to me to some degree. I may have gotten some of it out, its still there, below the surface, always feeling misunderstood and being accused wrongly of things by those who claim to know me best? Really? I feel like you don't know me at all.

Blithering update!

So its been a while since I've blithered so I thought I'd take the time to update you on where I am in life right now. I have become disabled which means I've lost the job that I felt was more like a ministry than a job. I have had several surgeries that had some complications, one of which, I would have died had my daughter not stopped by the house to check on me as I was in acute renal failure with rhabdomyalisis and it ended up with me being sent back to St. Luke's in ICU and then to the same floor I had been on after my 3rd back surgery. Along with these issues, I have also been blessed with another beautiful granddaughter and was blessed to hear that she had my middle name which is also her mother's middle name and comes from my great great grandmother. Also, along with the disabilities comes a very sad dynamic... I cannot be trusted alone with the grandchildren because of all the "what if's" and I totally get it. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if something terrible happened while in my care. The truth be told, I have been having a lot of these problems for more than just this past 2 years... I had to come clean with myself and then seek medical help. I thank God that I never caused an accident on the highway when I cannot recall how I got from point A to point B. Praise Him for watching over us all! There was a horrible rift between my father and myself which has since been tentatively mended. I know how things go with him and as long as he feels that he isn't 'cast away' then all is well in his world. He is more involved with his daughter and their family and that gives him purpose and as sad as it is, at least its good for him to feel like that. What is so strange is that people can't understand that I am completely content being at home. I've always been a homebody and being that I cannot drive, I am very content to be at home. My husband keeps trying to convince me that I'm depressed. He claims that I am now mourning so many things that I never allowed myself to mourn about like the death of my grandmother, the death of my step-father (both of which I was their primary caregiver prior to their deaths) and the death of my daughter's 4th son after birth. These are all legitimate things to mourn about but I think that I've gotten through all of these situations as best as I can. The biggest thing that I mourn and no one can seem to understand is my loss of breath to sing. I once lead worship and now I can't even sing "Itsy Bitsy Spider" with my granddaughter. I know what everyone says... you can worship without singing, just do what you can. But no one understands the connection that I felt to the One I was worshipping and the 2 way ministry that was taking place at the time. I would say that is the one thing that I really struggle with and there is no one but God to talk to about it because everyone else wants to minimize it and don't appreciate the connection that was there. Another really big issue is this pain pump trial and how I have to see a psychologist first. After reading through the paperwork I was to fill out, I became very upset because I feel that most of it is none of their business and there are parts of it that are outright offensive to ask. Then my husband tells me if I don't play the 'game' by their rules, then I won't get the pain pump. I don't feel that I should have answer to some PhD about my sex life or my pain levels and where it is, etc. as this is documented with all of my doctors and has been an ongoing problem for so long I couldn't answer even if I wanted to. But when the subject of sex is brought up, I feel that is offensively invasive. Absolutely none of their business. Would any of YOU feel that this is something that you feel is important in reference to getting a pain pump? Seriously! So, though its been a while, I have tried to catch you up. This is definitely considered blithering! :-)